When I first started this blog alongside my Instagram it was
for many different reasons. However, one of my priorities was to log my
recovery journey in the most honest way, to give people an insight and
understanding as well as, hopefully, being a comfort for those going through
similar experiences.
So I guess this post is about that- honesty. It’s a reminder that everyone’s lives aren’t always
what they seem from their Instagram and that’s perfectly ok.
Over the past couple of weeks those looking at my Instagram
will have seen all of the exciting things that I got up to...a week off work
filled with meals out, V festival, afternoon tea, cocktails in Manchester- you
name it! Those that read the photo captions will have had a little insight to
things not being quite as perfect as they seem- but still, very positive posts.
What you don’t however see is how a simple week off can
contribute so significantly to my mental health problems in perhaps a negative
way.
Not only was I going out of my comfort zone to social
events and eating foods that my eating disorder would scream no at- I was also
out of my usual routine. It’s triggered my anxiety to go through the roof and
my negativity popping its head out much more frequently than I’d like. I’ve
spent the last few days in such a negative mindset, wanting to hide away in bed
with no motivation to do things. So why?